Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Sunrise, sunset


"Is this the little girl I carried?
Is this the little boy at play?


I don't remember growing older
When did they?

When did she get to be a beauty?
When did he grow to be so tall?

Wasn't it yesterday
When they were small?

Sunrise, sunset
Sunrise, sunset
Swiftly flow the days
Seedlings turn overnight to sunflowers
Blossoming even as we gaze

Sunrise, sunset
Sunrise, sunset
Swiftly fly the years
One season following another
Laden with happiness and tears"

I'm sure this song will only resonate more as the years pass, but it seemed fitting for this post.

I don't know how... but my kids are growing up! 

Grace started preschool today. She was hesitant at first, then got comfortable enough for me to leave. It was a strange feeling leaving Grace not with a grandparent or at Sunday School, but at preschool. 

She apparently had a great day. Her report of the day is that she played with boys (starting young, this one). She already has a friend she asked about by name (a boy) in the car ride home.

Her teacher said she had a great time and played with everything.  She was in a very happy mood when I picked her up too! 

I can tell that she definitely had a good day, she is already asking when she gets to go back!

It is funny to be on the other side of school too. I already have paperwork to complete and a permission slip to return.

Grace is growing up in other ways too. She used to say, "Sure," if you asked her to do something. Now it is, "I guess so," with a big sigh. 

But at least with Grace, I can reason that it went so fast because of the portion of her life that I missed... but Remington is growing up too.

Somehow... without my permission... he has gone from a helpless, tiny infant to a little boy with his own opinions who explores the world as he sees fit. 

He will emphatically point to what he wants, and get mad if you don't obey. He asks, "that?" about various objects all the time, and I would swear he can answer some questions with, "Right there." There are many other words we think we hear, plus plenty of baby babble. 

He is a pro at finger foods and getting better at spoon feeding himself too! He cruises along everywhere holding on to things, but prefers to crawl to cross between objects. Though, he has taken a few select free steps (usually to me) in the last few weeks. If people ask if he is walking yet, we usually answer that he can... he just chooses not to, which we truly believe.

I'm genuinely having a hard time with him turning one tomorrow. It probably has something to do with the chance that he was my first and last baby (since Blake really does not want a third and even I see the impracticalness of having another kid- though I'm not convinced yet.)

I am so proud of him and all of his abilities, and it is so exciting to see him grow up... but at the same time I miss the preciousness of a little boy who desperately wanted to be held, cuddled and nursed all the time. This boy hates keeping still so much it is a challenge to change his diaper or his clothes before he starts trying to wiggle away!

The last big "baby" thing I am not ready to let go of is the nursing twice a day, just once before bed and once in the morning. It is one of the few times left to me that he is so calm and happy being held, I'm going to truly miss it when I am ready to surrender his last big baby thing. 

To Grace, I am so glad you enjoyed your first experience at school, played, made friends and are excited to go back. I hope you can hold onto the idea that school is fun forever (and don't mock.. I always liked school). You mean the world to us, and are so thankful that you are with us, and usually a happy, goofy, active, sweet, beautiful little girl.

To Remington, Happy Birthday little boy. I love your adorable grin, your baby blue eyes which get comments from everyone, and your precious laugh. It is so much fun to see your personality come out! Crawl as long as you like, it keeps you feeling just a tiny bit younger to me. Big or small, you will always have a special place in my heart.  


 Grace as Doc McStuffins

 Remington kicking back in his chair...which he climbed into himself and sat that way.

 Grace and I at the doctor.
 Grace and I at the hospital last week (bad sickle crisis, but thankfully totally good now).
 Grace wearing the Ducks shirt I made for her because she asked for a Ducks shirt and the ones for sale were designed more for boys.
 Remington pictures for his birthday.
 Grace outside her classroom today on her first day (above) and below are two pictures taken at home for her official first day photos.

 

Monday, August 18, 2014

Video Troubles

I have so many cute videos of the kids, and I have been trying to share them in various ways, but have been running into some difficulties.

These videos tend to be too long to share on facebook, instagram or the blog. They are too big to e-mail from my phone, and have to go through my computer first.

The best avenue I have found lately is YouTube. I can do something called unlisted, where you can only watch the videos if you go through the link, but I can share the link anywhere I would like, including the blog or facebook, but you can't find them if you search for them.

So, below are some links of recent cute videos. I hope you enjoy!

http://youtu.be/u_foXzGuTKc

http://youtu.be/aAtZN9EhOek

http://youtu.be/a8LWd6Z87fo

http://youtu.be/UD8RhM8eXjI

http://youtu.be/oQcqNpxbxwQ

I'll try to do this from time to time, while also looking at other ways to share these special moments. 

Friday, August 15, 2014

Different trainings needed

There is a Bible verse about running the race set before you, and as I am training for a race, running metaphors seem especially fitting lately.

Many Bible studies I attend talk about trails, and the difficulties of life that are sure to come, and I keep being apprehensive about the next " big one" I'll  experience. The adoption journey followed by the pregnancy journey felt like big ones, full of angst, tears and heartache. 

But since Remington was born, I haven't had another huge hard crazy time of crying out to God and I couldn't help but wonder if this time is just the calm before the next storm.

That may still be true, and maybe I will have a huge something come up soon, or it could be a different kind of training.

For my marathon, I am following an online training program, and some days are long runs with lots of miles, but a comfortable pace, and some days are short all out sprints mixed with jogs.

I thought about it today, that maybe I don't have to fear the next big disaster, because my testing/ trials/ training for heaven from God is sprint days for now.

It's the toddler tantrums and accidents and baby climbing up stairs hard days, that is just a day, but for that day is a lot harder than the long drawn out adoption process, which was hard because it was so long , but not full of acutely hard days.

Each day presents its own little challenges ( sprints if you will) that have to be overcome, but overall life is good. I'm thankful for the good, and will try to be better about my little tests ( and not give into the temptation to scream at my preschooler or cry to Blake about my days). I will try to be thankful that today's challenge for Grace is yet another low grade fever doctor visit night, and not months in the hospital battling something major ( my heart goes out to families that are facing this scenario instead). 

I also see this relative calm time as practice in prayer for others, who are going through their big trials (or long runs in my analogy) and need more prayer than I do. 

These are my thoughts tonight as I nurse Remington to sleep and Grace is at the doctor for a little fever yet again.

Saturday, August 9, 2014

Time Flies When you are a Parent (Part 2, more pictures and video)

Building Grace's new tricycle together video


Remington pushing the wagon around while Grace rode her bike.

Making bread together.
Remington's close encounter with an iguana at the fair.

Friends at the fair.




Family Vacation down to San Diego. Kids's first train ride.
Remington slept through it (which we wanted).



Grace's attempt to eat an ice cream cone.
The family Vans, all ready for the next day at the zoo.







Getting practice feeding himself.




First fair game.



Grace was quite scared about her first fair ride.
Her second went much better with Blake by her side.
Date afternoon at an Angels game (they won!)

Big fan of Doc McStuffins these days.

They look grumpy, but are having fun...just a bad picture.